Jan 07 2009
Easier Said
I’ve been agonizing over this post for the last 24 hours. I can write sarcastic, scathing reviews of ridiculous shows, and I can write about my hopes and dreams, but this is different. The words and sentences form in my head, but somewhere on their way out of me all of the emotions manage to turn it into an impossible mess.
I lost my best friend last night. I don’t mean she passed away, I just mean that our friendship is over. Though the official end took place last night over Facebook, I would be kidding myself to say that I didn’t see it coming. Over the last few months she has turned into a person I don’t recognize, someone who is bitter, resentful and mean. The person I knew was lost a long time ago, but I kept holding out, hoping she would come back. After the words we exchanged last night, almost all of my hope is gone. My only wish is that someday she comes to her senses, realizes that she has alienated and pushed away people who care for her, and apologize.
We were friends for six years, and though we weren’t always a big part of eachother’s lives, I knew she would be there for me if I need something, and I for her. We shared secrets, laughter, tears and a lot of good times. I’m really going to miss her, at least the old her.
